My Reasons Why

My Weight Watchers journey is going great!!! I have lost 9 pounds in the last two weeks and have managed to follow the plan with great ease. I am working to extend my activity each day. I am loving how I am feeling already! Eating healthy really does make a huge difference! My refrigerator is stocked way more than it ever was when I was eating unhealthy food! I am cooking much more frequently and our eating out nights have been reduced drastica

lly! Our grocery bill has expanded…..but the eating out decrease is helping make up for that! We are both feeling amazing and are quite proud of ourselves! I have become addicted to the Weight Watchers Feed (very similar to a Facebook news feed) and spend every free moment looking for good recipes, meal planning, or prepping.

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A big part of the Weight Watchers Feed is sharing your “Whys”. Your “whys” are your reasons for wanting to be a better you. Your motivation for making these huge lifestyle changes that are going to make you a healthier, overall better, you! I am working on sharing my “whys” there as well and wanted to share them here as well. My whys are not numbered in any particular order, only numbered for identification purposes.

  1. He is my why! But not for the reasons that many may think. Not because he dislikes the way I look, or complains about the weight gains. Exactly the opposite lol! He is one of my whys because our love is such a special, precious gift. We had to wait most of our lives to receive this gift. It is such a rare gift, many people live their entire lives without ever finding anything even remotely similar. But we did, we defeated the odds, took an impossible situation and made it work. Upon meeting, we instantly knew “We just have to be together!”. And we were both willing to do whatever it took to make that happen. I had to wait 4o very long years to experience this kind of love. I am willing to do whatever it takes to stretch what time we have together. Classic case of the quote “I wish I had met you sooner so I could have loved you longer.” When we first started talking about changing to a healthy lifestyle way back in the beginning, he told me “I love you no matter what you weigh, but I want you to be the very best you that you can be and be here for me to love for a very long time.” And that is exactly what I am doing! I can’t wait to see what the rest of this life has to offer us and I am ready to take it on!
  2. He is my why! He has had my heart since that very first day I laid eyes on him. I have always tried to be a good mother, but I always knew I was not one for setting all the perfect examples of how one should live. He grew up in a “do as I say, not as I do” type of environment. I can remember him as an elementary student learning about the effects smoking has on one’s lungs. He came home very upset asking me and his dad to stop smoking, showing us the pictures in his books. I look back at that now and cannot imagine why that did not have an effect on me! How could I continue to smoke after that? But I did. I am now smoke free for 2 years! And he was so very impressed, supportive and proud. He takes pride in all my life changes. I also ended my addiction to Diet Mt. Dew. Now 99% of what I drink is water. He is supportive of my weight loss, and very encouraging. He pushes me through workouts, cheering me on and challenging me to do more. I lost my Dad when I was 40. I have often said 4o years was not long enough to be his daughter. I don’t want my lifestyle and choices to shorten the time Cutler has to have me as his Mom. I am going to do whatever it takes to try to be there for each of his milestones along the way! And to set the good example of how one should be living their lives, what foods they should be eating, what exercise they should be doing. I want him to learn from watching me, not just listening to me!
  3. She is my why! That is me! Most importantly and before all others I am doing this for myself! That is the only way it will work! I want to feel better about myself and in day to day activities. I want to be able to look into a mirror and have that “yes girl” reaction instead of “whhaaaattt!” I want to know I am making the best decisions for myself that I possibly can! I have struggled with happiness in the past and always had food there to support me. I am slowly, day by day learning that true happiness is only found inside of ones own self. Others cannot make me happy. If I am set on being miserable, it doesn’t matter what happens, that is how I will feel. I had to go out searching for myself for quite a while. For so long I had only been what everyone else wanted me to be! I did not know how to make a decision myself, was not even sure of my own true likes and dislikes. I just went with the flow. I did finally find myself along the way, and have slowly began to understand who I actually am. Now on to making me the very best me I can be!
  4. They are my why! That is where I come from. My family! I have such love for each and everyone of them! I want to be here for them and be the best version of me! I want to stand  back and watch as my nieces and nephews go through this life and become who they are meant to be. I want to be there for my brother, sister and mother. I do not want to hinder any of them. I want to show them how making the right decisions for myself have turned me around. No more reasons to worry about me, those days are over. This is the new me and we are going to be just fine!

    And those are my reasons why. These are the reasons why I am on this journey. I will make each of them proud as I go along this path.

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It’s the small wins

A win is a win no matter how big or small! I had several victories today in this weight loss battle! First, I didn’t eat any of the foods I served the children today. Like I talked about yesterday, it is sooo easy to serve 3 eat 1….and it is done so absent mindedly! Today, I stayed focused and was determined not to have even one. And it felt great!

Tonight I stayed after work and did some extra cleaning and painting etc. I do this often to stay ahead of the game. Usually, it’s a free for all as far as food goes. Full access to everything and anything goes. Cookies, cereal, candy, anything! Tonight I did my work, even worked longer than usual and ate nothing!!! Wooo hoooo! Then to top the day off, I had to stop by the dollar store on the way home to pick up something. One of my hidden secrets is that I very rarely ever go into a store alone that I do not buy some type of candy. I have mastered the art of quickly eating a small candy bar and hiding the wrapper on the quick ride home. Tonight, I was not even tempted, it never even crossed my mind to check out the candy selection!

I stayed in my points today, without dying of hunger. I exercised, an hour long walk with my love. And exercised my right to vote as well! This was definitely a great day! I’m ready for tomorrow! Let’s do this. Now….I just hope I can sleep tonight when the marching band comes through my bedroom!

The New Me!

The time has come! Time to break old habits and obsessions and concentrate on being a healthier, better, new me! I know..I know…I know….I’ve said it before. This time is for real, legit, the real deal! I started today and have done a fabulous job if I must say so myself. I joined weight watchers online yesterday and have been tracking everything that has gone into my mouth today! And wow …..when you are held accountable for what you eat it makes a huge difference! I have decided to use this blog as my diet blog for now since my amazing bf no longer leaves me for extended periods of time and goes out of town. We just need to be together….and we are…..every second that we can be!

Food has always been a comfort item for me. I am the definition of an emotional eater. I eat when I’m sad, when I’m happy, when I’m mad….I can always find comfort in food. The unhealthier the food the more the comfort level increases. I am also guilty of being an absent minded eater. It’s an occupational hazard. I work with small children and think nothing about popping Nilla Wafers into my mouth as I serve snacks. Before I even realize I’m eating without even being hungry, I’ve ate half the box! A big mistake I make when attempting to diet is to go too long without eating. That’s when this insane hunger hits and I would eat anything sat in front of me.

I am trying very hard to improve on these things this time around. I am eating small snacks throughout the day (healthy snacks, not Nilla Wafers!) and I am being very conscientious of when and what I am eating. Again, holding myself accountable is HUGE for me! And even when the newness and excitement of it wears off, I must still continue! I know that I am not the best me that I can be right now. I am seriously overweight and it effects my health greatly! I want to live my life to the absolute fullest for as along as I possibly can. I don’t want this adventure cut short because I made poor eating decisions and was unable to control my eating. I will be a better me. I will stick to my plan and be successful…..and keep the weight off! I can do this! And each of you can watch me as I complete this journey! Wish me luck!

Making Just a Normal Day Spectacular!

It’s a Monday……I hate Monday’s! All the kids at work are cranky because they want another “stay home day” ….and I’m cranky ’cause I want one too!!!! But knowing that I get to come home to my own little world here makes everything that much more bearable. I have always enjoyed cooking…it is the fact of having to cook that I never liked before. I liked cooking when I wanted to cook. I also do not like cooking the same things over and over and over…I would never be one of these people that have “Taco Tuesdays” or what not. So as part of this new me my thoughts on cooking have changed as well! I no longer feel as if it is a chore that I have to dread throughout the day. I actually look forward to coming home each evening and cooking. Of course there are nights when I’m just not feeling it! The day was just too long and I just want to veg on the couch and order a pizza and that works out just fine! I’m also trying out new types of recipes that I would have never imagined cooking before. The teenage son has even given up his standard meal of chicken tenders and mac &  cheese to try a meal or two! The best part is that all of the meals I have cooked have  been healthy and mostly low calorie! The boyfriend and I are working on losing weight and living healthier lifestyles. It is a difficult task! The unhealthy choices are always so tempting and convenient!

Anyway, back to the topic of tonight’s blog. This amazing man I have been so lucky to fall in love with has this incredible ability to turn any normal day (yep even a Monday) into a spectacular day! I look forward to our talks while I’m cooking dinner; we each discuss our days and share any news we may have. Even now, just sitting here on the couch together gives me such a comforting feeling (he is busy on his laptop and I’m on mine). I like knowing the lonely days are over and look forward to spending forever with him! I wish everyone could feel this level of happiness! Thanks for reading! Time to go finish up my work I brought home and spend the rest of the evening snuggled up!

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Tonight’s Dinner: Cheese Steak Stuffed Peppers…..Yummy!