Not every week can be great!

A Look at Our Week

To say it has been A week is just an understatement! Words just can’t seem to do it proper justice! It all started going down hill early Sunday morning when we woke to discover the 2 1/2 inch wet and heavy snowfall we had received had caused us to lose power. So at 6 a.m. the wait began. Surely the power will come on soon. Time slowly ticked by with no change. I suddenly remembered the fridge & freezer we had full of food. We pulled out our coolers and iced everything down. We sat around a few hours, neither of us were able to do any work with no power and/or internet. Our phones were all we had. We hung out in the car charging them up before we finally ended up at Buffalo Wild Wings to watch the Cavs play. I had house plan books to keep me occupied. Then back home to grill the bag of fish and shrimp we had on ice before it thawed and went bad. It was a long night and waking up Monday morning to discover there was still no power didn’t help my mood. We had learned a power line one street over was down and causing the outage. It’s amazing to think that in today’s world with all of this technology that it can take 36 hours to complete a repair. To help my mood, my guy decided since we still couldn’t work that we should head out to another town and see what kind of new food place we could find. Food is our favorite past time activity. So off we went to Eden, N.C. We ate at the Downtown Deli, best part of our lunch was the ice cream! It was from a dairy we had never heard of, we were super excited thinking we had found something new, but after our investigation we discovered it was really only PET ice cream being distributed by the dairy. But the blueberry cream pie ice cream was to die for!

When we arrived home we were thrilled to find our power was back on! Thank you linemen for all of your hard work! 36 hours with power was enough! Still no internet, but we weren’t complaining! Picture number one is all of our coolers lined up in the kitchen floor! Picture two is our fish and shrimp cook off! And picture number three is the Downtown Deli in  Eden, N.C.


Tuesday was a lost day as well with no internet and not really being able to work. We learned Tuesday that the rental house we found in Mountain City last week was not going to happen. More details about that in the House Hunting Scene. Tuesday night led us to our most favorite restaurant/bar in town for their tap takeover and free pint glasses (we have an entire collection now!). See how we let our emotions guide our eating!?!

Wednesday and Thursday were business as usual and much more positive. Work and then hiking and enjoying the 70 degree weather. We are still working through the kinks of us both being here trying to work. For instance, he can be very loud when he’s on these conference calls, so he has worked very hard on being a little bit quieter as not to distract me while I was working. I purchased new headphones for my work this week that have helped out tremendously and I was promoted to a higher level of work! I am loving my work and love covering so many different topics.

Friday started off the same way but made a turn rather quickly. Every Friday I have been going to the preschool to help with the billing process. While I was doing this my guy was tied up on a conference call with work deploying a new program for someone. On my way home I passed him driving down the road, as soon as I pulled into the driveway I checked my phone to see if he had texted where he was off to. Apparently our internet had been going in and out and he gave up and was on his way to the public library to finish his call. Upon checking my phone I saw I had a missed call from my son. I called him back to learn he had wrecked his car. He said he was fine and I could hear in his voice that he was fine, but I couldn’t be convinced until I saw him myself. Off I went to check on him! He was indeed fine. Someway, somehow he was absolutely fine. He had lost control and flipped his car upside down. He had a tiny cut on his hand from crawling out the window. It was a heart wrenching afternoon for this mama! Mommin’ really isn’t easy! So very grateful to see his car and be able to look over at him standing next to me in one piece with barely a scratch on  him. The EMT’s checked him out thoroughly and said they were going to check his vitals just to be sure, at this point I was ready to slide him off the stretcher and lay myself down on it! I was pretty sure my vitals were in great need of being checked as well!


The House Hunting Scene

As I said above, we learned that we were not going to be able to rent the Cock-A-Doodle-Do house. My gut feeling tells me that the landlord found a more permanent tenant, he was not thrilled with our situation of being temporary. We were not thrilled with the dirty, stained carpet in the house and offered to have it replaced at our expense. I was flabbergasted when he refused! Anyway, we have chalked it up as a not meant to be kind of thing and we’re glad we found out now instead of later!

We learned this on Tuesday morning. Tuesday evening I was in town running errands when I received a Facebook notification of a message from someone I didn’t know. I had recently posted on a Mountain City Facebook Yard Sale page looking for furniture so I figured it was from that. Well, the message asked if we had found a house in the area yet. Perfect timing right?!? Wait, it gets better. I tell the lady that we had just found out our rental had fallen through so yes, we were looking for a house to rent. She tells me how her mother has recently passed away and her and her brother were considering renting out their mom’s house. Here’s where it gets good and becomes one of those right time, right place kind of things. She saw my add on the yard sale page (and she had to of scrolled back because it had been posted many days earlier) and had clicked on my profile and skimmed through my profile pictures. She saw one of me and Mom with the Mother’s Day frame that said, “I Love My Mom”. This gave her the nudge she needed to contact me about renting the  house. And it’s a much better deal for us than the original house! And cows … it has cows right next door! Mooooo! She is such a very, sweet lady! We are meeting her next week to see the house in person and finalize the deal! So … Thanks Mom!

We will also meet with our realtor next week to look at a couple of land lots. We are looking into finding a contractor in the area to work with as well. We have almost finalized our house plans thanks to our afternoon at Buffalo Wild Wings last weekend!

Hiking Adventures

Wednesday and Thursday were our only hiking days this week. Beautiful Spring days, in the 70’s! Much to my guy’s horror, I tripped and fell on Wednesday’s hike. My foot got stuck in a tree root and down she went. I recovered quickly and was fine. My biggest accomplishment was that I didn’t scream! Just very quietly down and right back up even though I did pick leaves out of my hair for the rest of the hike.

Traveling Times

We took our quick day trip to Eden, N.C. earlier in the week and then a trip to Lynchburg, VA to hear the Liberty University Wind Ensemble play a concert. The concert was very entertaining with different types of dance music. It never fails when going to these types of events my guy always finds someone he knows! This time it was a couple of tuba players, one that he had taught before. He’s such a celebrity when we go out!



Sappy Selfies

Our only selfie from this week is from the Liberty University concert.


We are definitely hoping for a better week next week! xoxoxoxo



Changes are Coming

A Look at Our Week

Things have certainly not slowed down this week! Between working, hiking/walking and cooking it has been a full week! During our trip to Ollie’s discount store last week, I stared at the kitchen gadget aisle. I just knew there was a kitchen gadget that I needed and had to have. Finally, I found it … a cookie scoop! It was perfect for making our mint chocolate chip cookies for St. Patrick’s Day! But this baking cookies every week deal is killing the diet plan!

My transcription work is continuing to go well. I am becoming faster each day and learning new tricks of the trade along the way. When I owned the preschool my guy built me the most amazing computer program. It proved to be a business saving tool! I loved it dearly and was always so impressed with how much easier he had made my job. Well, now he’s gone and done it again! I know have a computer program to track my transcription work. It even figures up how much I am making per hour with each job I complete. Quite impressive! (And yes, it may just be $9/hr…but let’s not forget, I made that $9/hr in my pajamas! :))


The dieting scene seems to be at a standstill. May have something to do with the weekly batch of homemade cookies? We are exercising every chance we can! I make goals for myself with small steps on the weight loss journey. This usually works well for me and helps to keep me focused and grounded. I always share my goals with my guy, because that makes me accountable! My current goal is to lose 9 pounds before our NYC trip on April 12th. I had also made the goal this week that we would not go out to eat all week. We worked really hard on that one. We both absolutely love going out to eat. It’s one of our most favorite activities! We made it until Wednesday night when we broke down and headed out to one of our fave places for Nachos. And then it continued Thursday as we were traveling. Oh well, there’s always next week!

Pic 1: Nachos from our fave place in Boone, N.C.

Pic 2 & 3: Peppers! We LOVE them! We eat them with/on everything! Cannot wait to grow our own!

The House Hunting Scene

We took big steps in our house hunting this week! We are in the process of renting a small 2 BR duplex in Mountain City, TN! This is our favorite location of all that we have visited and ideally where we would like to settle. We will not officially move in until Summer, but will use it as a home base when we are in the area until then.  We are currently waiting for everything to become finalized with the rental. Once this is done we will return to the area and begin setting up house!

We also stopped in and spoke with one of our favorite realtors in the area and began discussing the building process and what steps would need to be made first. We now have a list of local contractors that we will be setting meetings up with to review our plans and ideas. We have started looking at land and will be going to check several out once our housing situation is settled. Our house hunt is not over, we will continue searching for  houses, but are preparing ourselves for what may be our next step.  Exciting times! Scary times! Frustrating times! We are feeling it all!

This video was taken on the front porch of our rental house. I am absolutely in love! Cock-a-Doodle-Doo!

Hiking Adventures

We managed to get several short hikes in this week despite the 2 snowfalls we had! The animals are out and about and just as ready for Spring as we are! The green is beginning to show itself from under all of the brown! Sooner or later Spring is gonna happen, I just know it is! We keep check on a Mountain Laurel tree that my guy pulled another fallen tree off of in hopes of saving the beautiful Mountain Laurel. The tree is looking good so far, no blooms yet, but they should be coming soon.

The first pic is of a big black snake that was stretched out right across the hiking trail. Either she was pregnant and soon to deliver, or had just had a large lunch, not sure which. Now of course I could have very easily stepped over Mrs. Snake and went about by way, and I have no doubt she would have been fine with that, or I could have followed my guy as he just skirted right around her, but I needed a little more distance between us. So, I ended up going way uphill and off trail in order to put much as much distance as possible between me and the snake!

The second pic is from one of our hikes when we took the trails that go around the Danville Braves baseball field.

The third pic is 2 deer we saw during one of our hikes. They stood there still for a few minutes before running away. I love watching these animals in their natural habitats! Not too closely though!

The last pic is one of the small waterfalls on the Riverside trail that we walk on frequently. It is one of my favorite trails and has several bridges and small waterfalls.

Traveling Times

Our only traveling this week was to Mountain City, Tn. but it was a beautiful drive! Once we hit Wilkesboro, N.C. the view starts to change and you can see the mountains ahead. On our drive the mountains were beautiful capped with snow. It is a truly breath taking sight. I cannot wait until I get to see it every day!

Cutler and I will be going to Tennessee this coming weekend to see the family for Easter. Time to take more pictures of our kids since they insist on constantly growing! My guy is staying here solo so he can play in his annual Easter gig at a local church.


Sappy  Selfies

Here’s one from one of our hikes this week!


Have a wonderful week! xoxoxo

Retirement is a Huge Success!

Our Week in Review

We have worked on finding our new routines this week. It is definitely a different world for me and lots to get used to. I have to stop and think about what day of the week it is and you can forget about the actual date. It has been a busy week as well, I thought retirement was a slow-moving time … not around here!

We are up and at ’em by 9 a.m., which means “sleeping in” for me but not so much for my guy. He may begin to miss his days of sleeping past noon. Too much to do around here for sleeping! We both work throughout the morning hours. I am adjusting well with the transcription work I am doing, getting faster and more efficient everyday. I have a set quota of what I need to make each day and was able to meet my goal every day this week.

Our afternoons are spent hiking/walking when weather allows and we are also in the midst of a complete house re-organization. Three bags have already gone to the Goodwill and only two rooms are complete. Time to downsize and minimize before we have to move it all! The main job in the kitchen was spice organization. Spice storage has been a major issue in this apartment. It takes 10-15 minutes of picking up each bottle in the three locations they are stored in to find the one spice needed. My temporary solution is I have them all stored in a clear bucket now on top of the fridge. My new kitchen will have to have a more permanent solution. Our snow day tradition is to work a puzzle as we enjoy the view. We’ve been saving this one for a while now and finally got to finish it this week. We have another puzzle in waiting, but I’ve had enough snow, so hopefully it can hold out until next winter.


House Hunting News

The house hunt continues on. Very slow-moving at this point. We check the Zillow website daily for all new listings in our preferred areas. We are thinking more each day about the option of buying land and building our own house. Our next step will more than likely involve meeting with a realtor in these area(s) and seeing what our options will be if we do decide to build. Our plans for the weekend are to scour through our house plan books and gain a clear picture of exactly what we want and need this new house to be. Now, any volunteers to oversee the building process for us?

Hiking Adventures

We were able to get outside Thursday and Friday of this week for two small hikes. Well, they seemed pretty big to me though. It felt good to be out in nature again and seeing the changes in the world around us. A little bit of green was beginning to show! Today’s hike seemed to be a never-ending trek uphill. Felt good finally reaching the top though, well, at least until I realized I was going to have to go down and then back up to get to our start point again. But I survived! Even did a little “bush-whacking” on the way back down. I’m so ready for the weather to break and our warm, sunny days to return.


And what better way to celebrate a nice long hike??? Ice cream is the only way I can think of! And yes it was yummy, small butterscotch sundae for me and dreamsicle astro for my guy with an all beef hot dog on the side. 🙂


Traveling Times

Our NYC trip is really going to happen! Flights, hotel and Broadway show have been booked. Our days will be filled with seeing all of the sights and maybe a little shopping. I’m very excited and he is too even though he would never admit it. Usually on our trips I have every detail planned out in advance. Especially our food, we plan entire trips around the food situation. I’m not going that route with this trip, allowing more freedom and spontaneity. But we will eat, no worries there. Send suggestions of places not to miss and we will add them to our itinerary. Our trip is set for April 12-16th.

Sappy Selfies

And here’s another sappy selfie to get you through the week! This was on our hike Thursday afternoon on one of the local mountain bike trails.


Have a great week everyone! xoxoxo

Day One

My new life has begun! Three years ago when I laid out my “three year plan” it seemed so far away in the distance. I didn’t think it would ever arrive. Yet, here we are, three (well two and a half) years later. The sale of my business is complete and my new retired lifestyle began today!

It’s been a strange feeling over the last few days. Very hard to pinpoint and describe just exactly how I’m feeling. My man was out of town the last five days so it’s been just me here dealing with all these new feelings. For 19 years I had a specific purpose to fulfill. I knew each and everyday what my purpose was. Each day brought on it’s own different challenges, but the purpose remained the same. Work. I’ve been known to work entirely too hard and too much and way too many hours. I’ve worked since I was 14 years old. I was raised by two of the hardest workers I’ve ever met. That work ethic was instilled in my sister, brother and myself. I wish the rest of the world had that same experience!  The work ethic is still here, although “retired” I am working from home doing transcription work. Today was my first full day home with no “outside work”. I worked all day long! Between computer work and cleaning and reorganizing and Spring cleaning (yes, I Spring Clean during a snowstorm) and cooking dinner it was a full day! Staying busy is definitely helping settle the mix of feelings I’ve been having.

I began this blog a couple of  years ago to help myself deal with the death of my Dad. Writing the feelings out really did help me to deal with all those emotions. The emotions are still here four years later. The four year anniversary of Dad’s death was last week and my mind just kept going back to that last week four years ago. It seems like yesterday, yet it seems like a lifetime ago. Then the purpose of the blog seemed to shift to dealing with being alone for part of the summer while my guy worked out of town. Those days and weeks are hard! We love being together and when we cannot be we both have a difficult time adjusting! The blog gave me the chance to catch him up on my day to day activities. Now, I think it may be time for the purpose of the blog to shift yet again. Several people have expressed an interest in keeping in touch with our many adventures now that they will not be seeing me on a daily basis. I’m no longer a big fan of Facebook. The drama filled posts turn me away. And we always joke that the Facebook world hates us! Our super, sappy, lovey-dovey posts and selfies everywhere we go, faces aglow, big smiles, always so extremely happy… yeah, it’s sickening! So, to keep from flooding Facebook with our happiness, I will use this blog instead! I will post a link to the blog on Facebook and any who wish to follow our journey may. Others are free to scroll past and never click, and that’s fine!

I’ve been asked several times since an end date for work has been set, what our first big trip is going to be … Well…. We’re going to New York City! I have always wanted to go to NYC. Never been before! Want to go see the sights and say I’ve done it. He on the other hand would much rather prefer going just about anywhere else. The big city excitement does absolutely nothing for him. No mountains, no hiking, pollution, noise, traffic, yeah.. totally not his scene at all. I’ve mentioned going before and he’s always shut it down rather quickly. As things with the business sale began falling into place, one night he looked over at me and said, “So, do you want to go to New York City?” I said, “Well, yeah, always have.” He then announced that we would go as our celebratory trip for selling the business. But his promise came with stipulations. We would not set anything or buy any tickets until the sale was complete. Everything done and then the planning for a long weekend trip would begin. We set our time for sometime in April. And so, the concrete planning will begin tonight! A friend that visits NYC frequently has hooked me up with a perfect agenda! All the sights, Broadway show (I’m leaning towards Phantom, easy tickets to get on such a short notice), and all the excitement that NYC has to offer. I can’t wait! Let the planning begin.

And then there’s reality. The reality of this move we are supposed to be making this summer. To where you ask? Well, yeah, we aren’t really quite sure of that yet! We know the areas we would like to be in. But have had 0 luck finding a house in those areas. We have started tossing around the idea of buying land instead and building our house. That option is both exciting and scary at the same time. Most nights we have a difficult time deciding what to eat for dinner, and in building a house there are major decisions that have to be made, lots of them! It is overwhelming and mind blowing at this point. And well, if you know my man you know he is somewhat of a perfectionist type, and from my experience very little about building a house is considered perfect. We have already decided that if we do end up building, we will rent a house/apartment in the area so that we would be able to report to the job site everyday. He will be there for inspection, I will deliver doughnuts and coffee to act as a buffer for his questioning and scrutiny. We still hold out hope that as the housing market opens up this Spring, we will find the perfect house, already built, in the perfect area. Come on universe…hook a girl up!

Dinner tonight was delicious! Weight loss is a big part of my everyday. I go up and down on a regular basis it seems. I go from eating right and living a healthy lifestyle to going out to eat and eating big every night. It’s a hard ride. But I am confident with my new life that I will finally be able to stay on track once and for all! More time to exercise, more time for meal planning and preparation. And once our move is made, I will be all about growing our own vegetables and canning foods to enjoy throughout the year! I can’t wait! So tonight’s dinner plan was Sweet-n-Sour Turkey Meatballs with peppers & onions over Egg Noodles. So yummy! See picture below! And so easy to make! Just popped meatballs, sugar-free grape jelly, chili sauce and peppers and onions in crock pot and done! IMG_1779[1].JPGThe blog will more than likely include more food pics and hiking pics than anything else lol. I will try to keep the sappy selfies to a minimum though. 😉

Have to go start my snow day puzzle now! More to come later!

xoxoxo ❤


No Better You Than The You That You Are…

Song Lyrics I heard on my way home: No better you than the you that you are. I disagree!!!!  The song is intended to build women up, has lines about covergirls being too skinny and not eating, how you are beautiful just the way you are. I get that totally! I’m all for encouraging girls and women to see their own beauty. We all have it! But to fall into the “No better you than the you that you are” would mean there’s no room for improvement. And it is my belief that there is ALWAYS room for improvement in us all! I work daily on making myself a better me. To accept the me that I was yesterday is not good enough. I made mistakes yesterday, there were flaws in my character. I’m going to work hard today to try to lessen those flaws. Then do the same again tomorrow.

This thought process is a lot of what is wrong with the world today! Everyone getting the trophy just for participating, always looking for the reward for doing required tasks, the sense of entitlement. It originates in this type of thought process. I work with young children, and as a part of this job I hire younger workers.  The work ethic of today’s youth is practically non-existent! Everyday I am faced with dealing with this frustration. They are so entitled, so used to having the world handed to them on a silver platter, the mere idea of working for what they want never enters their minds. And why should it??? I struggle with this as a mother. I am definitely a less than perfect mother. I have made many mistakes throughout raising my child. I have to fight the urge to blame all of his shortcomings on his father and wash my hands of it. It is a struggle co-parenting though. And a manipulative child can work that in his best interest. I’m grateful that he has a “pseudo” step-dad that attempts to steer him in the right direction. ❤

The diet is going welll meh! Mexican for dinner tonight. I tried a new dish through with grilled shrimp & scallops trying to stay on the diet. It was meh, my mouth watered peering at my son’s cheesy chicken and rice plate though! The pounds are slowly coming off though! Looking good for my June trip goal! Working on laundry tonight and hoping to mop the kitchen floor! Did a little job hunting today and more house printing for my house hunting notebook! Ready for this week to be over and my week away with my love to begin!


Teary Tuesday

I have a child at work that will be in full crying spell and when you ask what is wrong she cries out “I’m just emotional!” This is me tonight! There comes times when I am hit with the need to cry. I can feel it building up inside me and I know it is coming. I try to prepare others (yes, I won’t lie, it does usually revolve around monthly cycles) for the out pouring that is bound to be coming. Then there are nights like tonight, nights where it can’t be held back! Stopped on my way home from work and rented a good chick flick to ensure the tears would come. Can’t have them locked up inside! And oh….did they come! So much going through my mind as the tears pour out.

They say  a song can take you back to a specific moment in time. I am a firm believer in this and in the healing therapy music can provide. The song from the movie took me right back to 3 years ago. Sitting in my parent’s living room with mom, my sister and brother. Dad was in ICU in the hospital. We had spent the day at the hospital and came home to unwind at the end of the day. The Grammy’s were on TV, and my brother was always a huge fan of award shows while we were growing up. We were even known to dress up for these events once or twice. As we sat watching, Bette Midler took the stage as a part of the In Memoriam. She sang “Wind Beneath My Wings” My brother, sister and I shook with tears, thinking of our oh so sweet Daddy, knowing that his end was very near, thankful for all he had ever done and given us. I can’t hear the song today that I don’t think back to that night and cherish the memory.

During the past 3 summers, I have struggled with the time away from my love. His work and passion take him away for long periods throughout the summer. In the beginning these times apart brought on a huge amount of insecurity. Everything was so new and developing right before our eyes. It was extremely difficult. It has always been a struggle to deal with going from being his #1, first box on his to do list, first thought in the morning, to way down on that list! The blocks of quietness between texts can seem neverending at times. It has gotten much easier. Our feelings for each other are much more secure and stable now. Validated you could say 😉 . The separation is still difficult though. Walking around in the day to day world without half of yourself can be hard! I miss our evenings the most.

Also on my mind during this cry storm is our future. So excited for it to begin. Wishing it could begin tomorrow. Ready to begin the next phase of our forever together. Trying to imagine what our stress free life will be like is quite fun! I can’t wait! Can forever come already?!?!


Summer Time!

Summer is here again! (not the official season, but school is ending, drum corps is starting, so in my book that equals summer!) Summer means several things for me; 1. My man leaves me again and again throughout the summer to work! (We are deeply in love with each other after waiting our entire lives to find each other.) Our sadness at being apart for even the shortest times can be sickening to some. The Facebook world hates us and our ooey gooey sappy posts & selfies! 2. Time to buckle down with the weight loss plan and fixate on a new goal. As of right now my goal is to lose the 10 pounds I have been playing with for months by the time we go on vacation on June 15. About 1 month, 10 pounds, I got this! 3. It’s usually a very busy season for me with work. A lot of repairs and cleaning and prep work for a new school year.

This year will prove to be quite different I predict. I have had a 3 year plan for the last 2 years. That 3 year plan will be coming to an end very soon! My business is now for sale and the house & job search have begun! When I take the time to truly sit and think about what the next year will hold, all the changes, all the dreams coming true, I can’t help but to smile, really big! It is a super exciting time, although stressful, the excitement outweighs all else. A new city, no clue exactly where just yet. Recommendations will be appreciated! We love mountain views! For the right view and the right house, and the right weather we would go about anywhere! I am on the hunt for a stay at home computer job. Scouring the internet for ideas and suggestions. I updated my resume today and began filling out my first application 🙂 My evenings are now filled with looking through houses and job listings. My mind constantly drifting to the new life ahead, making plans, making lists, ready to go!

Ok. An observation I made today upon reading a Facebook article. Our local high school had their graduation ceremony this past weekend. For the first year the ceremony was held in a different venue than the school (to prevent having to change location due to weather issues). Apparently each graduate was given 7 tickets for their family members to attend. 299 students graduated. On the morning of the event, parents were turned away at the door and not allowed to watch as their children received their diplomas. The fire marshal stated the building was at full occupancy and for safety issues no one else would be permitted inside. I can understand safety issues. But, preventing a parent from watching their child graduate??? This I do not understand! After alllll those years of staying up late ensuring their homework was complete, helping them study for all of those tests and exams, all those drives to and from school, and then miss the one glory moment you’ve waited 18 years for. O.k., now let’s do some math. 299 students were given 7 tickets each (I always hated those word problems in school) which equals 2,093 tickets. Add the 299 graduates to that total for 2,392. The school stated it printed 2,500 tickets. Their were 1,737 seats available in the bleachers and 1,000 chairs available for seating. Total seats available is 2,737, tickets printed 2,500. Therefore, there should have been no issue. It is assumed that people either printed fake tickets or snuck into the ceremony without tickets. Both of those acts are shameful, but the part that really bothers me is this: If you were sitting in this ceremony, it is reported that it started at least 15 minutes late due to traffic issues and lines of people still trying to come inside, I can imagine that news traveled throughout the venue rather quickly that parents were being held outside not allowed to come in. In the modern day of Facebook, I’m sure posts were read instantly from people sitting inside. So, if you were one of these families that either printed fake tickets and/or snuck people in illegally, and had MORE than your allowed 7 family members, and knew there was a mother or a father sitting in the parking lot missing their babies big moment. And you still just sat there? Is that really the world we live in?? Also, even if you were in this ceremony legally. You had a real ticket, you were part of a students 7 allowed family members. You were the aunt, or the cousin, or uncle. And you read on facebook that their is a mother sitting in the parking lot outraged by missing their child’s graduation. And you continue to sit there as an extended family member and take up that precious seat??? I am an Aunt. I cherish my nieces and nephew. I was right there to watch my niece graduate last year. And I will be there next year to watch the youngest niece graduate. I was proud  and wanted to witness the occasion.  But I would like to think if I had the knowledge that a parent was missing out on this opportunity and if I gave up my seat they could watch their child, that I would do it without hesitation. It would be a bummer, no doubt. But, I know my nieces heart, she would want me to give up that spot for someone else. I’m trying hard not to judge. I know extended family members that were at this ceremony and did not give up their seats. Maybe this was not an option. It has been stated that the doors were locked and no one was being allowed inside. Perhaps if someone had given up their seat the process could not have been followed through calmly in deciding who would be allowed inside. Our city has quite the reputation for violence recently, perhaps spectators were fearful to cause more drama by giving up seats. However, in all of the media attention, there is no mention of families attempting to give up their seats and being turned down. Again, I would like to think I would have done the right thing and given up my seat, and hoped that enough people would follow my example to ensure that all parents were able to watch their child. I often have to step back when I hear about situations such as this one and think about how I would have reacted. Going along with the crowd and having the attitude of “I’m not giving up MY seat” can be so easy. But we all know that is not the right thing to do . It is not easy doing the right thing, it is very easy to go along with the majority that do not always do the right thing. I watch people tear each other down on a daily basis. Always quick to find the negative in a person and/or situation. Very rarely do they stop to try to even find a positive. I just think the world would have to be a better place if we took a moment to build one another up instead of constantly tearing each other down. Must be the Hippy 60’s Love Child coming out in me!

That’s all for now! If you are reading this, comment your favorite, mountainous city…I need some moving destinations! Peace ❤

The Most Happiest Time of the Year??!

The song says this is the most happiest time of the year….but is it really?? By the looks of the posts on my Facebook feed it most definitely isn’t for many people. So many people are missing a loved one this holiday season. Another Facebook friend lost a husband just today, they were expecting their first grandchild in the new year. My feed is covered with sad “Missing You at Christmas” quotes, some missing a parent, others a spouse or child. My heart breaks with each of these losses. I’ve felt that pain not so long ago, and it still remains with me today. This time of year will always remind me of my sweet Daddy. He loved Christmas time, the decorating, the joy, the buying and giving gifts, he loved everything the season had to offer. Christmas has not been the same and will never be again without him. I so wish I could offer words or items to those hurting so badly this year that could ease their pain… but there is nothing that will…only time….and maybe not even that. Scrolling through these posts only make me even more grateful for the blessings I have. Instead of allowing these posts to bring me down I will instead turn my focus to all that I am blessed with.  I have a wonderful son that fills my heart, a great family, and the love of an amazing man. I am grateful that I had my Daddy for as long as I did and cherish each memory I have, also grateful that my son knew his grandfather and had such a strong bond with him. One that can never be broken. He has memories of his Papaw that will never leave him. We are fortunate. The lucky ones. I am absolutely, completely in love with my life and all that I do have. I only wish that others could feel the same happiness I do.

My world is wobbly

Our last time apart for the summer is almost over. I miss the most simplest things about him. As he told me the other day when I was at work, “If I was home we would not be together right now, you would be working and I would be at home.” This is true, but it is still a different feeling to miss him while I am at work during the day, knowing as soon as I leave work we will be together. He would have to admit the feeling is different for him too. Missing me while I am working is short lived. At the end of the day I come home and we are together. Knowing that is not the case is the hard part. Knowing that after a hard, long, stressful day of work that I don’t get to walk in the door and see his smiling face, makes my days seem even longer, harder and more stressful. Knowing that when something really good, or something not so good happens, that I will not be able to have our normal talking through the day session that night after work makes the really good things seem not so great and the not so good things seem pretty awful. He calls me his light. I’ve often joked that he is my light. I shine because of his love for me. When he is away it is much harder to shine. My light fades as I crave his light in my life. I feel small, and somewhat lost in the big world around me. The preference is that we always be together. Life works much better this way. I need him holding my hand walking through day to day life with me. The world continues rotating while we are apart, but in my mind it does not rotate quite as smoothly as normal, I imagine it has somewhat of a wobble to it’s spin when we are apart. So, until things spin smoothly again, I will do my best to make it through the next 2 days!

End of the Season

I guess you could say I survived another summer. I still have to get through this last week! I knew this one would be hard! We had a fabulous 10 day vacation together, followed by a week at home, then a weekend with my family. Now it is all over and he is gone. All quiet again. No dings from the phone, no answered texts, no laughing, no talking. All the world is quiet! Lots of work to do this week. Lots of working overtime. I’m ready to get lost in the whirlwind and hustle and bustle! Then have the week end and everything be right in my world once again.